Drunk people, a gift brought to you by Netflix

I had the pleasure of a brief glimpse of a drunk woman on Saturday, courtesy of a movie we were watching on Netflix. She came home tipsily to live-in boyfriend from a party, after which relationship drama ensued.

It did not look fun. I remember that dizziness and unreasonableness and pissiness that comes out of an involuntary pool of scrambled brain after several drinks. That reality just doesn’t show itself in my environment very often. My friends either drink very little or drink moderately and it all seems rather sane. (Though I know that a couple of them know they self-medicate, and I strongly suspect that a few more do as well.) Day to day I lack these very helpful reminders of what it is I left behind when I quit alcohol.

Netflix is good for lots of things in earlyish sobriety 🙂

I am thankful for this rhythm of clear-headed days and for you all in cyberland — your wisdom, honesty, sense of humor, insights, loyalty…

Day 170.

Have a good one!


7 thoughts on “Drunk people, a gift brought to you by Netflix

  1. Ooh yeah, brrrrr….. I have neighbours which show up almost falling down the stair drunk almost on a daily base. A good reminder. Need to watch that I don’t get arrogant over that though, that’s a trap from the addict within too 🙂
    When I quit I used a free online alcohol desensitization program. It is a sort of game where you get shown 2 drink, 1 alcoholic and the other alcohol free. And on top of the photo’s there is a drawn arrow which you need to find and tell the computer which way it points; up or down. It looks real silly but two things happen: I needed to train my sober muscle in not liking the alcohol and secondly the brain gets totally distracted from the alcohol because there is another purpose now: finding the direction of the arrow as quickly as possible. This resets the ‘Beer! -> Drink!’ route in the mind. Very cool. I think it helped me a lot. The ‘cravings’ I had were, in hindsight only minuscule, lasting a few minutes and on a scale from 1 to 5 never reached above 1 or 2 max.
    xx, Feeling


    • Agreed on the don’t get arrogant thing. And that arrow game is fascinating. I think that retraining/rewiring the subconscious is huge. Annie Grace talks about learning enough about the ridiculous toxicity/damage of alcohol that she (her subconscious (maybe)) simply didn’t want it anymore. The _Alcohol Explained_ guy (forgetting his name) said the same thing. I don’t yet really understand how they got there, but I’d like to. How cool that your cravings were relatively minor with this resetting technique!

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      • Ooh yeah! One has to do the mental work too, I did not want to imply I did not. I read ‘Kick the drink, easily’ from Jason Vale. That thought me a LOT about alcohol, my misunderstanding of this horrible drug and the traps that my inner addict would most likely want to fall into. I don’t think I could have done without that knowledge. After I read the last chapter and quit because I understood how inherently wrong alcohol is. I also realised that, next to a terrible misunderstanding, it is an addiction too and I had to put a lot of self care into this so I started looking for other options too. Then found the desensitization game. 🙂 Both the book, the game, the self-care AND…. the online communitiy were/are very important to me. I am happy that I quit. 🙂
        xx, Feeling


  2. Every so often, I am shocked to see my drug of choice being done in a movie…even now, it causes a visceral reaction-a physical sensation-in my body. Sometimes before my brain can even register what is happening. Very unsettling.


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